Strong. Weak. Incapable. Unintelligent Hood. Ghetto. Bold. Protective. Dream chasers. Father. Son. Lover. Provider. Smart. Knowledgeable. Mean. Indecisive. Flirty. Religious. Womanizer. Abuser. Controlling. Loving. Warmhearted. Sensitive. Felon. Giver. Friend. Loyal. Betrayer.
..Lost.
I hear your silent cries, while they are internal they still fall. I feel your pain, you know those deep rooted internal feelings of being unaccepted, misguided, betrayed, & forgotten that still haunt you to this day.
The smile you wear on your face everyday that you have mastered in order to hide the feelings of insecurity or inadequacy from others is so apparent to me. You “internally battle”finding the motivation to keep going, while those who should empower you most have the ability to brutally rip your soul out of your body, only to soothe your inner demons with 3 simple yet very complex words, I love you. Damn.
Truth is, the responsibility of being so strong and untouchable to the naked eye is what pushes you to keep up the pseud of “everything is ok” , all the while barely maintaining mentally & finding it hard to sustain.
You see somewhere along the way “we” and I say we because I am speaking as a society in general, have lost touch with how to UPLIFT , EMPOWER, ENCOURAGE and show our men that who you are to your core matters & that our love for you goes beyond anything we can obtain from you. Despite your flaws, shortcomings, our disappointments in you, our fears of you or our inability to understand the essence of you! We appreciate WHO YOU ARE beyond the illusion of WHAT YOU ARE ,regardless of the connection intimately, platonic, or acquaintanceship wise. Now don’t get me wrong, there are some absolute horrific souls out here, some that make it absolutely hard to love at times,but the thing is, you can love without allowing access...(That’s a whole WORD RIGHT THERE, CATCH IT )! Wont he do it!
Anyway, I just felt I needed to let you know that I “SEE” you & I “FEEL” the essence of you. YOU MATTER! YOUR HEART, SOUL, PRESENCE & TOTAL BEING WAS BIRTHED ON PURPOSE FOR A PURPOSE, & even though right now it may feel like you have no idea what that purpose is, it doesn’t make it less true. You are special my love, & ill continue to deposit that into your spirit until you believe it.
I love you for real, talk to you soon 🙂 ~BMichavery~
