Have you ever gone into a store and tried on an outfit, hat , jacket or pair of shoes and looked at yourself in the mirror & just thought ....Hell To the Naw! This is not me? It wasn’t that the item you tried on wasn’t nice or “Fly” or that it didn’t fit, it was just that once you saw yourself in it, it just didn’t feel like you. It didn’t give you that feel of YES , I’M IN THE BUILDING! More of a…. “oh hey I’m here” type of vibe.
Trust me you are not alone. We have all been awakened by the uncomfortable truth of at times, no matter how popular, how well put together or valuable something may appear to be, its just not for us & this is OK. The issue is so many of us despite this reality still move forward, regardless to how uncomfortable, ineffective, or beneficial it is to our growth. This can be in any area of our lives be it relationships, career choices, health & well being etc. Settling for what is available is a more acceptable option, often times at the expense of our authentic truths. Continue reading “It’s time to remove the “Illusion’s” & become acquainted with your truth’s.”
Strong. Weak. Incapable. Unintelligent Hood. Ghetto. Bold. Protective. Dream chasers. Father. Son. Lover. Provider. Smart. Knowledgeable. Mean. Indecisive. Flirty. Religious. Womanizer. Abuser. Controlling. Loving. Warmhearted. Sensitive. Felon. Giver. Friend. Loyal. Betrayer.
I hear your silent cries, while they are internal they still fall. I feel your pain, you know those deep rooted internal feelings of being unaccepted, misguided, betrayed, & forgotten that still haunt you to this day.
The smile you wear on your face everyday that you have mastered in order to hide the feelings of insecurity or inadequacy from others is so apparent to me. You “internally battle”finding the motivation to keep going, while those who should empower you most have the ability to brutally rip your soul out of your body, only to soothe your inner demons with 3 simple yet very complex words, I love you. Damn.
Truth is, the responsibility of being so strong and untouchable to the naked eye is what pushes you to keep up the pseud of “everything is ok” , all the while barely maintaining mentally & finding it hard to sustain. Continue reading “~Pause, Breathe, & Flow~”